Room Inspiration

I'll add to this as I find things. Most of them will probably come from tumblr, ha ha.

Anime: Nana

This past summer I watched the anime "Nana" (which is based on the manga). I really liked it. Unfortunately the creator of the manga got sick (I think) a few years ago and no one knows if she will continue writing it. 

Nana is a story of two 20 year old women who both have the same name (Nana, which means 7). One of them is very girly and doesn't know what she wants and the other is a confident punk rocker. They seem like opposites, but they actually develop a very strong friendship to the point where they seem like they'll fall apart without the other.

I really liked the feel of the manga and I thought that Nana O. was a pretty cool character. I thought Hatchi was kind of annoying, but I think in the manga she might have been a little better? Supposedly the manga is not as sad as the anime.

If you are in your late teens/early twenties, I think you might enjoy this manga/anime.

My Old Favorite: Big Bang

It's probably obvious by now that I like K-pop, ha ha. I used to really like Big Bang. I think the first of their songs that I really liked was "Haru Haru." It's not that exciting sounding now I guess, but at the time I really liked it. Here it is if you want to listen to it:



Some of their other older songs I liked were: Lies, Sunset Glow, and Wonderful. I also really liked their Japanese singles and recommend you listen to them. Here is one of my favorite of their Japanese songs:


Recently their songs have gotten kind of weird in my opinion... After listening to their latest album ("Still Alive") a couple times I started to like Fantastic Baby, Blue, and Monster, but they're still not really my favorites. G-Dragon (a main rapper & leader) recently came out with his album, but I do not like his style at all... I didn't really listen to it, but it seems fairly similar to his release last year (MichiGo & One of A Kind). I actually have never really liked any of his solo works. In my opinion, his first album was very bland, and then the later albums are to wannabe "gangster" for me... I guess it just depends on what you like. I liked Big Bang's style in the past, but I guess I should move on to something else and just enjoy the songs of theirs that I do like.

One of My Favorite Groups: Epik High

If you're into K-Pop, you will probably (maybe?) be familiar with Epik High. They're a Korean Hip-Hop group. The first video I ever saw from them was "One." At that time I was feeling pretty down, and I could really relate to it. I also felt like the lyrics and the video together were very powerful. You might not feel the same, and honestly I don't get the same impact from the video like the first time when I saw it. Maybe because it's already familiar to me or maybe because I'm older and at a different place now; I don't know.



I don't really listen to rap, but I find that I can really relate to their lyrics or at least I find them clever or interesting. I also like the sound of songs like "One," "Pieces of You," "It's Cold" etc. They also have some eerier songs like "Paranoia." Some songs also comment on corruption like "Nocturne." Of course they also have those "don't mess with me" type of songs as well. I really recommend checking them out. They have a wide variety of types of songs, so I feel like you would be able to find something you like. If you don't understand Korean (like me...) I really recommend looking up the translated lyrics as they're usually quite meaningful, unlike most fluffy pop music.

Tablo released his solo album a year or so ago. I like it, but it's more melancholy. Epik High (sort of) recently got together again (military service kept them apart for a while) and came out with a newer album, but I didn't like it that much. It sounded so different from their usual stuff... I think "It's Cold" was released to satisfy fans who wanted something similar to what they're used to (I liked it ha ha).

Live in the Present

Lately I constantly agonize over my future. I have no idea what I want to do. Sometimes I think doing something would be nice or fun, but a person needs to eat, right? I'm not sure if I should just say "Screw it!" and just do what feels right/fun, if I should compromise, or if I should just suck it up and do something I'm not really interested (which includes many many things...). The more I think about it, the more I feel like I should just say screw it... Trying to compromise or force myself to do something that is "right" or "prestigious" just ends up in me regretting my decision... Speaking of regret, I also can't forget mistakes I've made in the past... I wonder if I had just made a different choice, that my life would be so much better. I imagine how happy I would have been, how easier things would be, how much better I would be as a person if things had been different... But I can't fix my mistakes now. That ship has sailed... Constantly thinking about the future leads to anxiety. I can't predict the future and the outcomes of my decisions (for the most part). Focusing on the past leads to depression like symptoms. So effectively, I've created anxiety and depression for myself because I'm unable to focus on the present, what I can do now. That's why I'm leaning towards not caring about reason and just doing what makes me happy, even if it feels selfish and irresponsible. I've tried being responsible and doing what's expected of me, and that just put me in the mess I'm in now. At least if I'm the one making the mistakes, I have no one to blame and I can learn something. If I allow myself to be pressured into things, I end up blaming others and learning nothing. Maybe not always, but I think if you go at something you want full force, you might just end up getting it. I think it's because people are easily discouraged. I am easily discouraged. I hate the feeling of being a failure. But think about it; no one likes that feeling. Maybe life isn't about being naturally good at things or getting stuff right all the time (like school makes things seem). Maybe it's just about perseverance? Constantly growing and improving will allow you to surpass those who become comfortable with their success. Have an idea of the direction you'd like to go and set goals for yourself. Keep setting goals higher as you keep improving. Maybe success and improvement is not linear, but some weird, bumpy road with ups and downs that gradually improves...